A Cohesive Unit

Will I feel personal enlightenment? Will I ever feel comfortable in my own skin? Will my brain ever allow such a thing? I want to breath easily. I want to hold oxygen in my lungs with comfort and grace. I want to exhale without feeling like I'm losing some sort of fight for me. I think that my skin would fit quite nicely if my brain would allow such a thing. My big brain with it's big ego, yet remaining so small in scope. I want my skin to feel comfortable. I want my brain to except a certain level of comfort. I want a cohesive unit reaching towards some sort of ultimate potential. Is this too much to ask?